I'll put the question out there: are we always asked to love ourselves?

My answer is yes.
Not in an arrogant way, but a gentle self-confident way.
So that we won't be afraid of our own opinions, so we can stand our ground.

But sometimes, I really hate myself.
To be specific, my character-
I am so full of flaws that I know I have yet am too lazy to change.

Let's give a list of examples.
Who else is this disorganized?
Who else is always this late?
Who else is this dependent on others?

And it is the worst to know your flaws and try to accept constructive criticism but be too narrow minded to actually put them to use.

Sometimes it's horrible to be condescendingly labelled an xmm. (xiao mei mei)

"ARE you sure you can do xx or yy?"
Try to listen to that in an unhelpful voice and... It sorta puts my mood down.

Spurs me to do better though!

Also dislike it when others instantly assume i will bring over my bad habits to new things.

Can't you give me a chance to be a better person? I want to be neat too okay?! A little encouragement goes a long way.

But i have to remember to not retaliate harshly to people whom i ought to listen to.
Friday's YF message was on being a servant-leader!
A leader with humility.

i really need to walk with God every day
I wanna be closer to Him T^T