Overwhelmed by emotions...

Not good to be left alone on a Friday night.

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Ahhh but Giselle and Soph and Mel are all having fun, so I'm glad!!!

Giselle looks stunning in a dress for a ball
And Soph looks stupendous as always going to her sister's.

Mel bought bubble wrap!!1!!

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Must be my monthly time talking now.
Cause more sad thoughts are appearing.
i just feel very empty :(

I feel like hugging a dog or a wolf now

Jealous of the popz gang who got to go to Brighton beach today!

How come Trinity is ending soon?

So recently many messages in church have been revolving around WALKING WORTHY OF THE LORD.

Sophia, get well soon!

A mermaid found a swimming lad,
Picked him for her own,
Pressed her body to his body,
Laughed; and plunging down
Forgot in cruel happiness
That even lovers drown.

  — William Butler Yeats

Sia la sia la so many people have been going to N2 recently!!!

Coming to aussie has made me dumb

I don't know so many things now!!

And academically my brain is rotting away

Sorry damn burden

Next time if I stay up

Finally an update!

Watch this; and know the consequences of drink driving.

Always YOLO! YOLO!

YOLO 到你死

Living life on the edge everyday
Not a very healthy option
Who knows I might die of caffeine overdose or heart attack one day

Blehhh lit essay. 加油！

Stop being so nice to me!

But also
If you get annoyed/mad at me
I become very emotional and sad

So ugh idk
SOrry

what
i
in
feel
the
so
world
disgustingly
is
thick-skinned
wrong
how
with
can you stand
me

I feel like a rock being slowly worn down by the elements...

And by my own fault too, for falling into the water.

At the start of the year, I was still a round, solid rock
Still happy and cheerful always no matter what

And then slowly through the months
By people, by school, by circumstances
Slowly wearing down
Slowly being stretched thin
Slowly losing my cool all too easily

Ugh where is that inner joy and peace I used to have
Seek it in God, is what I would say
But how do I
When I spend less time with Him?
Have to devote more time to the Almighty one..!

Sorry to everyone for being a burden and a slacker
Never partner with me
I don't even know why I'm not taking all this seriously

Everytime someone comes in and asks,
"So how's your (whatever assignment)?"
"Hahaha, 0 words"

And at first they laugh too
"Haha, gotta do it soon! There's not much time left!"

Then they start to get worried
"It's getting late..! Quick Joy!"

Finally they realise i'm a gone case
"...." *facepalm*
"Whatever. Do whatever you want."
"I want to treat you as an equal, but I need to scold you!"

And I just.
Waht happened to me.
I'm not like this, you know?

Not the kind to laugh off important deadlines

I admit that I'm a last minute person, but never to this extreme...

I don't know...

Why...

Help

My character has just spiralled downhill ever since a few months ago

I can't pinpoint the reason, but I just feel like there's something amiss

I just want to let it all go

I can't produce results with a snap of my fingers!!

Ahhh lit essay!!!

Hahahah shit have to stop living like this

Appreciation post!

Many many thanks to Giselle (ey Soph/Shona, yours will come soon)

Firstly I wanna say thanks for saying that you like my voice!!
That means a lot to me you don't even know :')

Cuz I hate my voice
It's so low and monotonous
But if I try to change the pitch it sounds so disgusting

So yeah thank you for the self-esteem boost!
I think your encouragement is mainly the reason why I'm starting to sing more and all
Ahhh thank you

Also I know you mock me a lot!!
But it's out of *~lurve~* right
RIGHT

So thank you!!!
You're too funny and cool and I' m very honoured to be your friend
Sorry I'll try to spend more time with you (and shona & soph)

Please believe me when I say I want to spend time with you!
It's with y'all that I feel secure and comfortable

It's a special homely kind of feeling ♥

So yeah haha i've been kinda emotional these few days and you guys make me feel better

Thank you again ☻

Ugh feel like a disappointment

I hate this feeling.
Frankly I think it's the only thing that gets through my thick skin.

"Can you please just"
"Honestly it's getting annoying"
"I give up on you"

How do I explain the feeling when people say stuff like that?

it's like a spasm of pain through my heart
and then
the floodgates open

How do I put it.
I feel the need to please people?
But I don't put in the effort to please them.

This is so stupid!

Well this will come in handy ↓

Also I don't get how you're liking me more
After all that shit that I revealed to you
I feel like a horrible person
Eughhhh
Like I'm always disrupting the peace
And you always have to take care of me
It shouldn't be that way
I'm so sorry

Hello all my lovely friends, sorry I haven't been blogging as much!!!

Failure
Emotionally weak piece of shit

angst angst angst

so gulping down half a 440ml can of caffeinated Mountain Dew does not seem to be a very good idea

i'm quite high rn and slightly jittery

i'm very excited at chemistry so um there's something wrong obviously

but hey whatever it takes to wipe chemistry off the face of the earth

go neopets!

I swear mood swings are the worst.

I am the worst chem partner in the world!!! I'm so sorry that you're stuck with me. I think i'm really lucky to have you as a partner though? You're not blowing your top at me (or at least if you're angry at me you don't show it at all) and just very cordial to me! Ahhh thank you I really appreciate that. Also thank you so much for not getting exasperated and saying "to hell with this, i'll do the whole thing myself"!! I know i'm a lazy person who always leaves everything to the last minute and ugh i need to change that. But yes, just thank you again for being so nice about the whole thing and WE'LL KICK STEVEN'S ASS